“I’m going to lay down,” she told him again, words thick in her mouth. He nodded and turned back to his phone, looking disappointed and frustrated. Maybe she could read him better than she thought. “Will you lay with me?”
you have to
be your own
what was i supposed to do when your hand slid up thigh under my desk? when, even after i grabbed your wrist and pushed you away, you kept going? while the rest of our class continued watching the movie, you forced your hand between my thighs in the dark. to this day, i imagine myself leaping from my chair, throwing your hand aside and telling everyone what you had been doing under my desk.
Although I didn’t think I was going to make it, I actually did it! I wrote twenty thousand words in July, completing my goal for Camp NaNoWriMo.
I’m so proud of myself. This is the most I’ve written in years and the first time I’ve ever completed NaNo. I still have a lot of writing to do until this book is finished but I’m actually feeling motivated to keep writing and it’s such a strange feeling. I’m so used to wanting to write but not being able to. A lot of credit goes to my friend Dominica who has spent the entire month doing writing sprints with me and being this books number one fan. Without her, I probably would have given up weeks ago.
Well y’all, it’s official!
I published it today because it felt right to publish on my birthday. Twenty six years on this earth and I finally feel proud of myself for something. It’s such a strange feeling, this mixture of excitement and dread and nervousness. This book is so personal and leaves me feeling incredibly vulnerable. Nevertheless, I am proud. I didn’t expect to get here but I did. So thank you to everyone who has been a part of the process.